The song is such a part of the post that I couldn't leave it out. However, I am not computer savvy enough to upload it straight from the internet, so I just recorded it with my camera...no video, just audio! Push play and pay close attention to the words, either while reading the blog or before reading the blog, or after, or all of the above! It is so good and true that you may want to hear it more than once! Credit to artist, Aaron Shust!
December 1, 2004 changed my life forever!
It is on this day that we had our second miscarriage! Now many of you may think that this has to mean that our loss in June of the same year changed my life forever, too, and in a sense that is true! I loved that baby so much already, too, but the length of pregnancy and the events of the miscarriage were much different. After one miscarriage, I met so many women who had a similar experience and went on to have more children, and immediately I was ready to try again, rather than sit in sadness! When I had two losses consecutively, I allowed doubt and fear to creep in immediately! I did not see us as parents of an only child in my dreams, but I agreed almost immediately to "settle for that"! My doctor said, "Your hope is in Alexander!", meaning that I knew my body could carry a pregnancy to term, so there was no need to be discouraged long-term. Now my doctor is a strong Christian man and I do not discount what he said because he was right! HOWEVER, our hope was and is in the Lord! Because of the timing of the second miscarriage, Christmas on the River never comes around without a time of reflection on my grief, sorrow, and newfound HOPE of those days in 2004! Within days, God had turned my mind and heart toward Him and His promises for our future! Where fear and doubt once tried to take up residence, hope began to shine brightly and God brought a comfort like none other to our hearts! Where I once regretted my actions during my brief encounter with my baby after delivery, I began to smile and laugh again, knowing that he/she was already safe in the arms of Jesus before I even saw him/her! And my hope is in the fact that this song rings so true for me...I am not skilled to understand what God has willed, but my Savior is alive and loves me and because I have put my trust in Him, I have an eternity to worship Him, through the tough trials and in my happiest moments of watching my family here on Earth grow and thrive, and after a die I will fall at His feet for endless time! Beautiful promises!
Because God's promise in Jeremiah 29:11 gave me such great comfort during the tough days following miscarriages, I now daily celebrate a new hope we received in 2007...
Reagan HOPE Sanford
What a blessing my children are to me...I cannot wait to meet the other two one day!
"For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a HOPE!"
Jeremiah 29:11
Please put your HOPE in Christ today! He died for your wrongdoings (sins) and He lives today! When He returns for us as the Bible promises, I want you all to go with me!
December 1, 2004 changed my life forever!
It is on this day that we had our second miscarriage! Now many of you may think that this has to mean that our loss in June of the same year changed my life forever, too, and in a sense that is true! I loved that baby so much already, too, but the length of pregnancy and the events of the miscarriage were much different. After one miscarriage, I met so many women who had a similar experience and went on to have more children, and immediately I was ready to try again, rather than sit in sadness! When I had two losses consecutively, I allowed doubt and fear to creep in immediately! I did not see us as parents of an only child in my dreams, but I agreed almost immediately to "settle for that"! My doctor said, "Your hope is in Alexander!", meaning that I knew my body could carry a pregnancy to term, so there was no need to be discouraged long-term. Now my doctor is a strong Christian man and I do not discount what he said because he was right! HOWEVER, our hope was and is in the Lord! Because of the timing of the second miscarriage, Christmas on the River never comes around without a time of reflection on my grief, sorrow, and newfound HOPE of those days in 2004! Within days, God had turned my mind and heart toward Him and His promises for our future! Where fear and doubt once tried to take up residence, hope began to shine brightly and God brought a comfort like none other to our hearts! Where I once regretted my actions during my brief encounter with my baby after delivery, I began to smile and laugh again, knowing that he/she was already safe in the arms of Jesus before I even saw him/her! And my hope is in the fact that this song rings so true for me...I am not skilled to understand what God has willed, but my Savior is alive and loves me and because I have put my trust in Him, I have an eternity to worship Him, through the tough trials and in my happiest moments of watching my family here on Earth grow and thrive, and after a die I will fall at His feet for endless time! Beautiful promises!
Because God's promise in Jeremiah 29:11 gave me such great comfort during the tough days following miscarriages, I now daily celebrate a new hope we received in 2007...
Reagan HOPE Sanford
What a blessing my children are to me...I cannot wait to meet the other two one day!
"For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a HOPE!"
Jeremiah 29:11
Please put your HOPE in Christ today! He died for your wrongdoings (sins) and He lives today! When He returns for us as the Bible promises, I want you all to go with me!
2 comments:
girl, you are SO precious to me. i am SO grateful that it was God's will that you are MY sister. i weep again tonight, but PRIASE GOD in the midst that He carried you and Eric
(and all of us, truthfully) through the sorrowful times and allows us to lift Him up in the joyful times. Oh, how I love you and your FAITH!
p.s. going to buy a new c.d. this weekend. :)
thanks for sharing amanda. you are so encouraging when you share your faith!
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